Seeraholic

This has taken longer than I'd anticipated, lol. But doing the art school after my previous studies has been the best decision of my life.  

So, it's time for me to return... at least for this summer Then, I don't know... It's hard to keep up with a hobby when you've got bills to pay.

Anyway, I'm really enthusiastic about what I'm gonna draw next.

Also, I'm open for commissions, if you're interested, send me a Note. I'm flexible concerning techniques (digital, traditional: drawing, painting, charcoal, watercolour, marker, coloured pencil, china ink, etc.), styles (anime, semi-realistic, realistic, other styles) and themes. Contact me and we can discuss the details

Have a nice day  

Maybe some of you have already noticed that I'm not posting new works nowadays. There are a few reasons for this.

First and most obviously, I cannot use my scanner, because there isn't any driver for my current operating system. I have some traditional drawings I could submit,
but I lack the time and motivation to figure out how to make good quality photos of them with a camera.

Secondly, my top priority is to study for my final exams at the university. I needed some rest, but now I'm back to actively studying again, and drawing is a distraction that I can't allow myself right now, no matter how much I sometimes miss it.

Finally, I am kind of at a watershed period right now. The way I have been creating doesn't work anymore. It was practice and practice and somewhere along the lines I've forgotten how to enjoy it and be creative, not to mention that it didn't even take me anywhere - because you can't just develop if you don't have any aims, if your heart isn't in it, if you can't even do your job attentively. That's what I've figured out in the past few months, when I allowed myself to stop drawing mindlessly and stepped back to actually see what I'm doing. I need a different approach, and I'm not gonna resume drawing unless I feel capable of creating freely, experimenting, trying different themes and enjoying what I'm doing. Any other effort is just draining my limited energies, and I need them right now.

That being said I constantly have several things in my mind I want to put down on paper, and I'm inspired daily to the extent it almost hurts to not create anything, but I need to have discipline right now, until I finish my studies.

It's better if you don't hope for new art in the next few months, but I still will be reading my messages and e-mails regularly, so feel free to contact me.

I've finally updated my username.

'Molkoholic' has long been outdated, since what had inspired it has also changed, and many other people have started using it as well, destroying its status of a unique username.

I haven't been able, however, to think of a suitable new name for a long time. I wanted something personal, something that stands for myself in one word, something I could use on every site for any occassion. But I just realized that my whole attitude had been wrong. I don't need a universal nickname, I just need one that suits a certain part of my online presence.

I needed a nickname under which I could promote my drawings I am making in my free time for fun. Which are, incidentally, almost exclusively Sailor Moon fanarts. So, nothing is wrong with a Sailor Moon themed nickname.

To link it with my old identity, though, and because I liked the wordplay, I made the new name on the analogy of the old one. Also, I wanted to make it clear that I am not talking about the 'love of sailing', therefore I've decided to use the Japanese title, Seeraa Muun as a starting point. Thus, I finally arrived to the combined word Seeraholic.

Do you like it?

Edit: I just have received a surprise premium membership from ! I am so touched!

I will make the announcement about my new username soon.

When I was about 10 years old, I went to a band camp. I was watching tv with my roommates, and I got to know a series called Sailor Moon.

I remember how excited I was watching the series for the first time, after school, when I was alone at home. I remember the suspense about the moon princess, the cathartic revelation of the secret identities of Sailor Moon and Tuxedo Mask, the weirdness of Zoisite and Kunzite’s behaviour who were supposed to be brothers, the heartbreaking death of Nephrite, and the struggle to have Endymion regain his memories.

I remember how happy I was when they started the Death Busters Arc (and my confusion about Haruka, who for some weird reason had a male voice when untransformed, leaving me and probably many other children my age totally puzzled), my sadness when it was stopped, and all my uncertainty while the series kept appearing and disappearing from the tv program.

I remember my happiness when I first saw the Sailor Moon magazine in a window one day while going to the elementary school. Also, when I got my Sailor Moon nightgown (that I still have and occasionally wear at home).

I can vividly recall sitting by the window and tracing my Sailor Moon magazine, my first attempts at drawing at about the age 13-14. I had created a huge pile of drawings in about 2 years, most of which I’ve destroyed one day. How I wished many times since that I hadn’t done that! It would be so great to see the progress I’ve made...

The end of the story you already know, I kept on drawing Sailor Moon and sometimes other stuff too, with recurring hiatuses, but never fading commitment, and here I am, 17 years older, and find myself waiting for the new Sailor Moon episodes with the same excitement I had all those years ago.

It is because of Sailor Moon that I can now draw the way I can, that I have experience in using the computer for many different kinds of things, to some extent that I can speak English and that I still remember how to enjoy my life even when most things go wrong. And I’m thankful for that.

Two days to go until the next Sailor Moon Crystal episode. Bad anatomy and lame CGI can’t let me down now. (Jadeite’s yaoi voice, omg! )